I am really PISSED! There is no specific reason... I am just pissed! And I could not stop crying... Loneliness filled me... He is out with his friends, not bringing me along. I am just feeling sad! He always complained saying hownot close are his friends and me. He always said I will only silent in front of his friends, made him embarrassed. The reason is, I don't even know his friends, how am I supposed to talk to 'em? The answer is in him.
He seldom brought me out with his friends; neither he comes out together with my friends. What is in his mind? The answer is unknown. Forever unknown. If we are not involved in each other's social circle; thenwhyarewetogether?I know, since I was together with him, or should I say before I was together with him, I know he was like that... He likes to live in low profile, way too low profile, I guess. I had not met his friends for God knows how long it took me to meet his friends; and I always wanted him to be with me when I was with my friends. I am starting to get closer with his housemates cum closest friends of his since the end of year 2007. Deep in my heart I was happy that this finally happened, and I believed there is room to improve as he is quite good with my friends already. Chances are hard to be encountered; yet I am stillhoping for more. Someone said,"he must be hiding something from you, that's why he doesn't want you to be close with his friends."Another said, "he did not bring you out with his friends just because he does not want you to feel out of place since all his friends are all male."
We both know and understand each other to a certain level; yet, we quarrel still. And I believed I am the main cause. And I know how tolerating he is... and how considerate... but, he ................ maybe does not know how to express himself. I shall always remind myself.
At the end of the day, should I or should I notdo something about it? God knows what will happen next. Sore throat now.