Friday, 25 September 2009
SUPER EMO!
Today I am super emo, just like my title!
Don't ask me why, because I myself do not know!
Went and ate my beloved beef nasi beriani, should be contented because God knows when I last ate it. Somemore with my beloved bf. The feeling was just not right.
Came back from work, I saw 3 parcels awaiting me to unwrap them. Should be excited like hell but I just could not be myself. (still play with them like they were my new toys because I super love lip glosses these days!)
Then watched 星光5 [荣誉]. Again, God knows what went wrong in me, I felt like crying upon hearing each song they sang. Not that touching actually. Did not touch my heart though, but the feelings just came up to me. I hold my treasured tears because it was nothing to cry for! siao, super emo lar! By the way, I like Olivia Ong :) Then got addicted to Olivia, started playing her songs from 8pm to 12am? Lol, this is just me, would play the same song/ album repeatedly if I like it for that very moment! Speechless, huh?
Then ZS called me up, informing me he was going with his former schoolmates, that was 8.40pm. There he went missing until 12.19am I started to worry and rang him. Okay, he was on his way going home fetching another friend. This is the first time I actually did not get moody over him going out with his friends, leaving me alone at home. I seriously think I have grown. When he got home, he called me and it was very unhappy. He said I talked nonsense, I was just asking "all boys ar?" Anything wrong meh? Unless he was hiding something lor. Don't care lar! Fuck it, like I care!
I am already very emo for the WHOLE day, now he even pissed me with that "nonsense" issue. What is his problem?! But I did not raise my voice or what, because I already promised myself to change, so I cannot be so easily defeated one lor! Then I thought of a good way to 发泄, so I am here blogging again. Express my feelings here is better than shouting at him right, readers? Now I feel like crying again. I just don't know why! Can someone please tell me why am I so emotionally unstable today? Just feeling very sad inside, is it a sign to bad incidents? Please God, I want everyone around me to be happy, please use your power to stop anything bad from happening.
Anyway, thanks baby for fetching me these few days. Only a few days more, ok? Bear with it, please. Love you :)