ABOUT ME
♥ Sharon Lau, 21+.
♥ Gemini.
♥ Muar, Johor.
♥ Loves: Shopping. Photoshopping. Music. My girlfriends. My boyfriend. Cosmetics. Pink color. Online Shopping.
♥ Hates: Betrayers. Double-headed snakes. Fakers. Disgusting insects.
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♥ Xiaxue @ Wendy Cheng
Saturday, 19 September 2009
Went back to Malacca with ZS in the afternoon just now. Definitely not my day. It just sucks!All the incidents just happened without expecting, ended up quarrelling. Actually not quarrelling, he never intended to quarrel, neither did I. It was my attitude problem and some communication problems, but I believe it's not me alone, partially his fault too. I choose not to go into details. Anyway, we ended up with angry parting. I was angry, he was angry. I showered him with my sarcasm; he repaid me with "tu..tu.." over the phone. We are not the same person like how we started our chemistry. So different now. We both just want face. No one is willing to lose. And we are not talking to each other. He did not contact me, neither did I. I wanted to call but ... ... I chose not to because I know you need to calm down and did not wish to talk to me.I tried hard, very hard to treat him very nicely these 4 days. Okay, I know! It was just freaking 4 days. Compared to the past 2 years, I was shouting at him almost everyday. We cannot live in peace one. I seriously showed my efforts even he did not give me something in return. I guess I have hurt him too much, way too much! He could have acted normally and being not appreciative; I don't mind, seriously. But the sentence just destroy all my faith and confidence. I want encouragements, in fact I need them to make changes. I need them to motivate me to becoming a better person. I need them to improve my real personality deep inside of me. I really really do. But you just gave me the opposite one.I seriously wanna make changes to save this relationship because I care. It hurts when you do not see a future with your current partner. When you don't see him as your lifetime partner, it's even worse. What's the point being together now right? Time and youth consuming.This was the first night I actually drove out to seek calmness. Sad, alone, being left were the words attacking me. In this one and a half hour, I have learned a lot from my lovely housemate since Alpha, one of my favourite girlfriends in my uni life. She taught me a lot of principles I predicted wrongly in the past. I am really grateful, thank God I have you. If not you, I would not know these new stuffs that supposed to be general knowledges to me. If not you, I would not know how to face this all alone. If not you, I would not have enlightened. If not you, I would still be miserable.I am willing to learn, baby.
Are you willing to accept the new me?
Are you willing to believe in me again?